Night Keeper

Ever been home-sick?
Well, I've been ever so, heart rending days-gone-by blue.

I fret at night instead of sleep. I ache with lonesome these nights. Dreams just remind me of my faults and failures. If they only had a pill to stop them, I'd be happy. So I stay awake as much as I can until bed wins. When all I'm able to notice is how the sheets feel good between my toes and I'm too tired to think for too long.

Tonight... I'm lamenting over what's been missing from my life, the way people were, how I was, that sort of thing. I miss my dearest friend and the times we had together. I miss how things were between my beau and me. I miss how I thought about myself.

All while good people are asleep and dreaming.

2 comments:

Janes Insane said...

What's got your mind working like this? Have you talked to your Dr. about maybe taking an anxiety med. before bedtime?

gabbi said...

My mind gets working when I'm tense or too busy but that doesn't seem to be it this time. I give in and take trazadone and xanax to finally sleep come morning. I think my monthlys make it worse for sure, so that hasn't helped.